Wednesday, May 23, 2018

Exes and Oh Ohs

I sat in the middle of the chaos that was my life, watching from a distance. I could see all the parts that had led me here but none of them seemed to work together... It was like I had wound up 15 different music boxes with the same song but all at different times. Not quite a merry go round where the song was still recognizable, more like confusion that was almost familiar...  Imagine a marching band, each member with a different conductor (if that's what they're even called) who started when they wanted with no regard for anyone else but themselves... All together the music is loud and obnoxious and it makes you want to cover your ears, but as each music box ends or as each band member stops to listen, the confusion lessens and the chaos slows, until finally there's only one. You can finally hear what you were meant to hear all along, and it is the most beautiful song you've ever heard...

With just a week of school left for the kids and summer plans already filling up our calendar, I couldn't help but reflect on this past school year. 

The beginning of this past school year was pretty challenging for our family. We have four kids at four different schools. We had golf, soccer, horseback riding, piano and a new school on a completely different schedule than the rest.
Life was hectic. If it didn't get put on the calendar it wasn't happening. I can't even tell you how many  times I cried in just the first couple of weeks... Because for the first time since becoming a flight attendant mom, I thought, I can't do this.

I would go to work leaving a laundry list of things for their dad and stepmom, who has two girls of her own, by the way, and  pregnant at the time!

We were all overwhelmed but it made us, "the parents" (as the kids call us), really come together.

I'll be the first to admit we had a rocky start.
Not because of any one person's fault. We were just going about our separate lives, beating to the sound of our own drums. It was loud and chaotic, and it took all that noise to get us to stop, take a step back, and listen so we could get in sync. I'm grateful for our experiences and the things we went through, and I can't wait to share what we've learned! 

We still get off key and we're going to need some fine tuning as the kids get older and things change, but it's just like learning a new song. It takes dedication and communication, but our end goal has always been the same: to see our kids living their best lives.

Jesse and Amber have been married for a year and 11 months now, haha! I know this because she once told me she read in a book that it usually takes two years to blend a family.
Well, we have 7 kids between us, ages 8 months to 15 years. That's a lot of blending, but I think we are finally getting the hang of it!


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